Sunday, August 7, 2011

Eid Greetings!



Ramadan Mubarak! The month of fasting has officially begun, and a project of mine has officially kicked off!

I'm selling printing and selling Eid cards with my own original artwork on the front. These cards are 4" x 5.5" and cost $2.50 per card, plust $5 for shipping if you'd like it mailed to you. They are sold in packages of multiples of 10 or 25. 25% of the proceeds from the sales will be donated to ONE, a grassroots organization that works to prevent extreme poverty and preventable disease, focusing their efforts on Africa. They do not ask for your money, although it is welcomed; they ask mostly for your voice. ONE firmly believes that one individual can make a world of difference. You can check out their website here: http://www.one.org/us/ . This is of particular importance now, during the month of Ramadan, when Muslims around the world fast during daylight hours in order to identify with the millions of people around the world who feel the pain of hunger every day of their lives.

At this very moment, there is an intense crisis in the Horn of Africa, where parts of Somalia, Kenya, and Ethiopia are facing a terrible drought that is endangering 12 million men, women, and children. Immediate aid is vital, but world leaders are responding much too slowly. Please visit this page to sign the petition to call our leaders' attention to this crisis and lend your voice for those who cannot: http://act.one.org/sign/horn_of_africa_us/ .

ONE has also partnered with Islamic Relief Fund, ISNA, and the Alliance To End Hunger to produce the 2011 Ramadan Action Guide, an Advocacy Resource on Hunger and Poverty, which you can download here: http://www.one.org/blog/2011/08/03/download-the-ramadan-action-guide-today/ .

This is part of my effort to establish an art business. I'd really like to expand into more Eid card designs as well as cards for every occasion. If you have any suggestions, I'd be thrilled to hear them! The cause that ONE stands for is very important to me, and all sales will help in our effort to help those suffering in the world. Even if you are not interested in cards, please please sign the petition and look up what ONE does. And if you know of others who may want to purchase cards, please let them know.

Email me at sadiaquddus.art@gmail.com with questions, orders, and suggestions. I'd love to hear from you!



Wednesday, July 6, 2011

Beginnings

I'm so so excited to start this blog! For the record, this is my third, but the one I'm most psyched about. My other Blogger account was for my World Literature class, and my Tumblr serves as storage for all the things that inspire me.

But this. This. This is going to be where I exercise my artistic muscle. That sounds terribly cheesy, but honestly, that's exactly what this is! I'm an Architecture + Plan II (liberal arts honors) student at the University of Texas in Austin, and I have a bit of a creativity bug. I like to make things. I draw, I paint, I design, I write, I play piano, I read (a TON), and I'm inspired by anything and everything around me.

Here I'll keep track of all my artistic endeavors and projects, and document the adventure. Okay, perhaps its not that epic, but as any artist/creative person will tell you: Process is EVERYTHING. Wow. Who knew I'd echo my design professors one day?

I sell my work too, and work on commission as well. If there's anything you want, shoot me an e-mail at sadiaquddus.art@gmail.com, and I'd be thrilled to work with you!

Well, I dunno where this is going to go, but I guess it's my first step to whatever journey this might end up to be. Thank YOU for reading this and joining me :)

Welcome to my imagination!

Wednesday, May 11, 2011

Leading By Serving finale

According to UNICEF, over sixty million children live in Bangladesh.[1]

One of Bangladesh’s many young faces.

Between 2005 and 2009 the primary school attendance rate for boys and girls in Bangladesh was 80% and 83%, respectively.

Secondary school attendance for boys was 46% and 53% for girls.[2]

While the first statistics demonstrate a clear attempt to provide universal education in one of the most densely populated countries in the world, dropout rates between primary and secondary school are disturbingly high. Many societal flaws are to blame for this phenomenon: child labor, high mortality rates, and early marriages for girls among the issues.

Nevertheless, despite its poverty, Bangladesh has made tremendous strides towards meeting children-related Millennium Development Goals (including rising primary school education, near gender parity in primary and secondary schools, and declining under-five mortality rates).  But it is a struggle, and the children suffer. In a nation where half the children live under the international poverty line, it is critical to provide education.  Schooling is the pathway to a life beyond mere survival.

This is where I hope to come in.

I have always been conscientious of my unique identity. I am not a Bangladeshi, nor am I an American. I’m both, tied into one, with Muslim thrown into the mix. These are my roots, and have inherently influenced who I am and who I am becoming. I have never quite fit into America or Bangladesh; I am always an obvious standout. In Bangladesh, my great-uncle jokingly calls me memsahib, which is what natives called white mistresses during the period of British Imperialism. My clothes, my manners, my accent and demeanor, even my walk seems to be distinctly American. And yet, in America, my skin color, my name, my religion and cultural traditions set me apart.

My family, friend, and I catch up at a café in Dhaka.

Fortunately, this has never been an issue for me. I like to stand out. This identity however, has made me question my life and the blessings I’ve been given. I have two cultures to call home, have escaped poverty, and am enrolled in a very prestigious School of Architecture in the United States. God must have blessed me with these gifts for a reason. I just have to find my purpose. And this brings me back to my roots.

For me, everything stems from education. My grandfathers on both sides of my family tree climbed the ladder of education to lift themselves out of rural life, and both did so in a spectacular fashion. They were not content with being city clerks; both were first generation university students and both obtained PhDs. Their hard work ensured that their progeny could move forward in life and succeed.

But what defines success? Wealth? Comfort? Power? Happiness? Probably all of the above. My definition of success is fulfillment, justice, and compassion. I’ve known that I have to give back to the world what the world has given me. Islam teaches us to spread good in the world, and that is my mission. I must define my life through service and my vision begins in college.

I am an Architecture and Plan II student. This is an apt, if somewhat difficult partnership. Because Plan II prides itself on the Renaissance education it provides, I am getting a prestigious and well-rounded education. Architecture melds seamlessly with this because architecture by nature requires me to constantly learn everything about everything. You cannot build without understanding people, the environment, human nature, weather conditions, political situations, the laws of gravity and picturesque massing. The list never ends. With these degrees, I can help improve educational opportunities for children in Bangladesh. There is a parity of decent school buildings in rural areas, and as an architect, I can build these structures. Three quarters of Bangladesh’s population lives in rural areas, over half of whom subsist below the poverty line. Villages desperately need schools to teach these children the way to success.

I think it is imperative that the world responds to this crisis. There are similar stories all over the world, but because half of my roots bury into Bengali earth, my personal obligation is there.

The first step for me is to complete my education. Both majors are crucial to my future as a skilled architect. An education from the States is well respected internationally, and UT and its School of Architecture are fairly renowned throughout the architecture community. These are two very demanding programs with exacting standards, and in conjunction can easily wear students down. I question the strength of my passions for each program far more often than I would like, but something always keeps me determined to tackle the challenge. Few people understand, because few people undertake this track – I know of only three other students besides me. Despite the challenges of the lifestyle, I believe I have made the right choice. The knowledge that I can help a small portion of the world reminds me why I’ve chosen this educational path. I will continue to take studio classes, and gear my focus towards sustainable architecture. Through Plan II, I hope to take a broad range of courses to expand my knowledge base. I plan to take Anthropology and other social sciences, as well as International Studies courses for elective credits in order to better understand human dynamics, global politics, and cultures. Because of the nature of my dual major, I have four more years to complete after this, after which I must take exams to obtain my architecture license. This will enable me to practice in the field. I also plan on going to graduate school – architecture is an incredibly competitive field, and I must do as much as I can to stand out. So Harvard, the top architecture graduate program, is on my radar. PhD, here I come.

However, between graduation and graduate school, I have other plans. I plan to spend two years working for the Peace Corps. President JFK challenged us to think outside of our country and the insular bubble of our private lives, and I will respond to that challenge. The Peace Corps is the perfect training ground. I would love to work in a South Asian country facing similar problems, such as Cambodia. There are several different fields I can work in: Education, Environment, Health, Youth and Community Development, Agriculture, HIV/AIDS, Food Security, and Business and Information and Communication Technology.[3] I want to work in Education. Because education is so significant to me, I would like to be involved in every step of it, from student, to teacher, to school builder. I cannot imagine anything more rewarding than to directly influence and improve the life of a child. The following video provides an insight into the life of an Education Volunteer in the Peace Corps: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8uRbeW-Vro8.  This way I can experience the lifestyle of a teacher and student and develop an innate understanding of the needs that a village school must fulfill. Poor architecture occurs when the designer fails to get inside her client’s life and mind, and doesn’t respond to the client’s needs. I want to create secondary schools that succeed. These are structures in which children feel comfortable and safe and are excited to attend. They are buildings which teachers can utilize to the best of their abilities and where they can feel at ease. Ultimately, these schools must combat steep dropout rates and be environmentally sustainable, easy to build and replicate by hand, and beautiful. It is vital to create beautiful schools because people must be proud of their buildings. Villagers who are proud of their school will make an effort to ensure that their children attend. A beautiful structure will get used. It will be a source of inspiration and attraction.[4] An ugly, utilitarian one will simply be another blemish on the land, and will inspire and excite no one.  As a teacher, I would learn precisely what would create a sense of pride and honor in a school.


This is an example that truly works. It is called the METI Project.

Due to my education in the United States, I would also be able to teach skills that will be valued in a third world country such as English, which is incredibly valued outside of America. Bangladesh suffers in comparison to countries such as India because English courses are not as successful in schools that are not explicitly taught in English. On an international level, the quality of English one speaks is equated to the quality of education and level of competency one is perceived to have achieved. Besides that, English classes (especially Bump’s E603) teach students to develop both the left and right sides of their brains; it is both an analytical and creative process. Whole-brained approaches teach students holistic methods of problem solving. This is critical for a population that needs to lift itself out of poverty. In addition, my English classes have taught me to approach problems with an open mind, and utilize my voice to convey my ideas clearly and succinctly. This has come in incredibly useful in architecture, because presenting abstract ideas concretely to clients and review panels is critical to success. Also, if I decide to start my own firm, my English skills will assist me because businesses require high levels of written skills.

Through the Peace Corps, I would also learn adaptability. As we have learned in this course, character and leadership qualities develop from taking risks, making mistakes, and throwing ourselves out of our elements. Our adventures with experiential learning and free falling have already begun to prepare me for this, but the Peace Corps would be the catalyst. The lifestyle I am proposing to lead won’t be the most financially stable one, so it’s a scary thought. After the Peace Corps, I will try to get a job with a firm in Northern Europe. Countries like Germany and Norway and Denmark do a lot of nonprofit work in Africa and Asia. This will be valuable experience – but it’s also daunting. Being hired by this type of firm that is difficult. However, our fourth year of undergraduate studies can be spent interning abroad, so I hope to be placed in a firm through whom I can make connections and to which I can return after completing my Peace Corps stint. If that doesn’t work out, I will start my own firm. That is the most daunting goal of all: to strike out completely on my own. The thought of complete independence is terrifying, especially in an unfamiliar country.

However, precedence shows me that achieving this ambition is possible. Last week, I attended one of UTSOA’s Lecture Series. The speaker was Francis Kere, an architect from Burkina Faso who went to school in Berlin. He formed his own firm to build schools, and has three main design principles on which he relies: local materials, traditional knowledge, and the power of the people. He builds schools in villages, including his own village of Gando, Burkina Faso, as well as in India.[5] His projects span the globe and are not limited to schools, but the fact that he has succeeded and is living what is in essence my dream gives me hope. Perhaps I could work with him in order to gain experience to achieve my own goals.

Due to the challenges of my college life, I sometimes lose sight of this future. The Architecture/Plan II track can be quite difficult, and sometimes I wonder if perhaps I’m meant for something else. No matter what, I know whatever I do must be meaningful. It must have purpose. In the words of Ralph Waldo Emerson, “I do not wish to expiate, but to live. My life is for itself and not for a spectacle. I much prefer that it should be of a lower strain, so it be genuine and equal, then that it should be glittering and unsteady. I wish it to be sound and sweet, and not to need diet and bleeding.”[6]

The photo speaks for itself.



Total Word Count: 2006
Without Quotes: 1947

IMAGES:
  1. http://www.unicef.org/bangladesh/overview.html
  2. Picture taken by my mother
  3. http://www.greendiary.com/entry/meti-school-in-bangladesh-is-hand-built-and-eco-friendly/
  4. http://home.messiah.edu/~aw1313/PeaceCorps2.html




[1]  "The Situation of Children - Bangladesh Today," UNICEF, accessed April 
26, 2011, http://www.unicef.org/bangladesh/overview_4840.htm.
[2]  1. "UNICEF Bangladesh - Statistics," UNICEF, last modified March 2, 2010, 
http://www.unicef.org/infobycountry/bangladesh_bangladesh_statistics.html#77.
[3] "Education," Peace Corps, last modified October 27, 2010, http://www.peacecorps.gov/index.cfm?shell=learn.whatvol.edu_youth.
[4] "METI - Handmade School in Rudrapur," Anna Heringer - Architect, 
http://www.anna-heringer.com/index.php?id=31.
[5] "Francis Kere," Francis Kere Architecture, accessed April 19, 2011, 
http://www.kere-architecture.com/person.html.
[6] Ralph Waldo Emerson, "Essays, First Series [1841] - Self Reliance," 
American Transcendentalism Web, accessed April 25, 2011, http://www.vcu.edu/ 
engweb/transcendentalism/authors/emerson/essays/selfreliance.html.

Tuesday, April 26, 2011

Leading By Serving Final

Leading By Serving

According to UNICEF, over 60 million children live in Bangladesh, a figure greater than the population of the United Kingdom.[1]

One of Bangladesh’s many young faces.

Between 2005 and 2009 the primary school attendance rate for boys and girls in Bangladesh was 80% and 83%, respectively.

Secondary school attendance for boys was 46% and 53% for girls.[2]

While the first statistics demonstrate a clear attempt to provide universal education in one of the most densely populated countries in the world, something goes wrong between primary and secondary school. School attendance declines dramatically because dropout rates in primary school are disturbingly high. Many societal problems are to blame for this phenomenon: child labor, early marriages for girls, and high mortality rates among them.

Despite its poverty, Bangladesh has made incredible strides towards development and meeting children-related Millennium Development Goals.  But it is a struggle, and the children suffer. Without education, there is little hope to life outside of abject poverty. In a nation where half the children live under the international poverty line, it is critical to provide a means to a better life.

The key is education. Schooling is the pathway to a meaningful life, a life that is more than just survival.

This is where I hope to come in.

I have always been conscientious of my unique identity. I am not a Bangladeshi, nor am I an American. I’m both, tied into one, with Muslim thrown into the mix. These are my roots, and have inherently influenced who I am and who I am becoming. I have never quite fit into America or Bangladesh; I am always an obvious standout. In Bangladesh, my great-uncle jokingly calls me memsahib, which is what natives called white mistresses during the period of British Imperialism. My clothes, my manners, my accent and demeanor, even my walk seems to be distinctly American. And yet, in America, my skin color, my name, my religion and cultural traditions set me apart.

At a café in Dhaka.

Fortunately, this has never been an issue for me. I like to stand out, I like to be unique, I like that I am different. This situation, however, has made me question my life and the blessings I’ve been given. I have two cultures to call home, I have escaped a fate of poverty, and I am enrolled in a very prestigious School of Architecture in the United States. God must have blessed me with these gifts for a reason. There is a purpose to my life. I just have to find it. And this brings me back to my roots.

Everything for me goes back to education. My grandfathers on both sides of my family tree climbed the ladder of education to lift themselves out of rural life, and both did so in a spectacular fashion. They were not content with being city clerks; both were first generation university students and both obtained PhDs. Their hard work ensured that their progeny could move forward in life and succeed.

But what defines success? Wealth? Comfort? Power? Happiness? Probably all of the above. My definition of success is fulfillment, justice, and compassion. I’ve known that I have to give back to the world what the world has given me. Islam teaches us to spread good in the world, and that is my mission. I’ve determined that I need to define the overarching theme of my life through service. Now I need to fill in the frame with the details. My vision begins in college.

I am an Architecture and Plan II student. This is an apt, if somewhat difficult partnership. Because Plan II prides itself on the Renaissance education it provides, I am getting a prestigious and well-rounded education. Architecture melds seamlessly with this because architecture by nature requires me to constantly learn everything about everything. You cannot build without understanding people, the environment, human nature, weather conditions, political situations, the laws of gravity and picturesque massing. The list never ends. With these degrees, I can help improve educational opportunities for children in Bangladesh. There is a parity of decent school buildings in rural areas, and as an architect, I can build these structures. Three quarters of Bangladesh’s population lives in rural areas, over half of whom subsist below the poverty line. Villages desperately need schools to teach these children the way to success.

I think it is imperative that the world responds to this crisis. I understand that there are similar stories to this one all over the world, but Bangladesh is one of my countries. Half of my roots bury into Bengali earth, so my personal obligation is there.

The first step for me is to complete my education. Both majors are crucial to my future as a skilled architect. An education from the States is well respected internationally, and UT and its School of Architecture are fairly renowned throughout the architecture community. These are two very demanding programs with exacting standards, and in conjunction can easily wear students down. I question the strength of my passions for each program far more often than I would like, but something always keeps me determined to tackle the challenge. Few people understand, because few people undertake this track – I know of only three other students besides me. Despite the challenges of the lifestyle, I believe I have made the right choice. The knowledge that I can help a small portion of the world reminds me why I’ve chosen this educational path. I will continue to take studio classes, and gear my focus towards sustainable architecture. Through Plan II, I hope to take a broad range of courses to expand my knowledge base. I plan to take Anthropology and other social sciences, as well as International Studies courses for elective credits in order to understand human dynamics, global politics, and cultures better as well. Because of the nature of my dual major, I have four more years to complete after this, after which I must take exams to obtain my architecture license. This will enable me to practice in the field. I also plan on going to graduate school – architecture is an incredibly competitive field, and I must do as much as I can to stand out. So Harvard, the top architecture graduate program, is on my radar. PhD, here I come.

However, between graduation and graduate school, I have other plans. I plan to spend 2 years working for the Peace Corps. President JFK challenged us to think outside of our country and the insular bubble of our private lives, and I will respond to that challenge. The Peace Corps is the perfect training ground. Bangladesh is now closed to the Peace Corps, but I would love to work in another South Asian country facing similar problems, such as Cambodia. There are several different fields I can work in: Education, Environment, Health, Youth and Community Development, Agriculture, HIV/AIDS, Food Security, and Business and Information and Communication Technology.[3] I want to work in Education. Because education is so significant to me, I would like to be involved in every step of it, from student, to teacher, to school builder. I cannot imagine anything more rewarding than to directly influence and improve the life of a child. The following video provides an insight into the life of an Education Volunteer in the Peace Corps: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8uRbeW-Vro8.  In addition, this way I can experience what a teacher and student experience, and get an innate understanding of the needs that a village school must fulfill. Poor architecture occurs when the designer fails to get inside her client’s life and mind, and doesn’t respond to the client’s needs. I want to create secondary schools that succeed. Schools in which children feel comfortable and safe and excited to attend. Schools that teachers can utilize to the best of their abilities and where they can feel at ease. Schools that combat the steep dropout rates and are environmentally sustainable, easy to build and replicate by hand, and are beautiful. It is incredibly important – no, it is vital, to create beautiful schools. This is because people must be proud of their buildings. Villagers who are proud of their school will make an effort to ensure that their children attend. A beautiful structure will get used. It will be a source of inspiration and attraction.[4] An ugly, utilitarian one will simply be another blemish on the land, and will inspire and excite no one.  As a teacher, I would learn precisely what would create a sense of pride and honor in a school.


This is an example that truly works. It is called the METI Project.

Due to my education in the United States, I would also be able to teach skills that will be valued in a third world country. My English classes will assist me because English is incredibly valued outside of America. Bangladesh suffers in comparison to countries such as India because English courses are not as successful in schools that are not explicitly English-medium. On an international level, the quality of English one speaks is equated to the quality of education and level of competency one is perceived to have achieved. Besides that, English classes teach students to develop both the left and right sides of their brains; it is both an analytical and creative process. Whole-brained approaches teach students holistic methods of problem solving. This is critical for a population that needs to lift itself out of poverty. In addition, the skills that I’ve learned in my English classes have taught me to approach problems with an open mind. They have taught me to utilize my voice effectively and convey my ideas clearly and succinctly. This has come in incredibly useful in architecture, because presenting abstract ideas concretely to clients and review panels is critical to success. Also, if I decide to start my own firm, my English skills will assist me because businesses require high levels of written skills.


Through the Peace Corps, I would also learn adaptability. As we have learned in this course, character and leadership qualities develop from taking risks, making mistakes, and throwing ourselves out of our elements. Our adventures with experiential learning and free falling have already begun to prepare me for this, but the Peace Corps would be the catalyst. The lifestyle I am proposing to lead won’t be the most financially stable one, so it’s a scary thought. I plan to work with a nonprofit group to accomplish these goals. After finishing with the Peace Corps, I will try to get a job with a firm in Northern Europe. Countries like Germany and Norway and Denmark do a lot of nonprofit work in Africa and Asia. This will be valuable experience – but it’s also daunting. Getting into a firm like that is difficult. However, our fourth year of undergraduate studies can be spent interning abroad, so I hope to be placed in a firm through whom I can make connections and to which I can return after completing my Peace Corps stint. If that doesn’t work out, I will start my own firm. That is the most daunting goal of all: to strike out completely on my own. The thought of complete independence is terrifying, especially in an unfamiliar country.

Last week, I attended one of UTSOA’s Lecture Series. The speaker was Francis Kere, an architect from Burkina Faso who went to school in Berlin. He formed his own firm and organization for building schools, and has three main design principles on which he relies: local materials, traditional knowledge, and the power of the people. He builds schools in villages, including his own village of Gando, Burkina Faso, as well as in India.[5] His projects span the globe and are not limited only to schools, but the fact that he has succeeded and is living what is in essence my dream gives me hope. Perhaps I could work with him in order to gain experience for my own goals.

Due to the challenges of my college life, I sometimes lose sight of the future. It can be quite difficult, and sometimes I wonder if perhaps I’m meant for something else. No matter what, I know whatever I do must be meaningful. It must have purpose. In the words of Ralph Waldo Emerson, “I do not wish to expiate, but to live. My life is for itself and not for a spectacle. I much prefer that it should be of a lower strain, so it be genuine and equal, then that it should be glittering and unsteady. I wish it to be sound and sweet, and not to need diet and bleeding.”[6]

The photo speaks for itself.



Total Word Count: 2109
Without Quotes: 2050

IMAGES:
  1. http://www.unicef.org/bangladesh/overview.html
  2. Picture taken by my mother
  3. http://www.greendiary.com/entry/meti-school-in-bangladesh-is-hand-built-and-eco-friendly/
  4. http://home.messiah.edu/~aw1313/PeaceCorps2.html



[1]  "The Situation of Children - Bangladesh Today," UNICEF, accessed April 
26, 2011, http://www.unicef.org/bangladesh/overview_4840.htm.
[2]  1. "UNICEF Bangladesh - Statistics," UNICEF, last modified March 2, 2010, 
http://www.unicef.org/infobycountry/bangladesh_bangladesh_statistics.html#77.
[3] "Education," Peace Corps, last modified October 27, 2010, http://www.peacecorps.gov/index.cfm?shell=learn.whatvol.edu_youth.
[4] "METI - Handmade School in Rudrapur," Anna Heringer - Architect, 
http://www.anna-heringer.com/index.php?id=31.
[5] "Francis Kere," Francis Kere Architecture, accessed April 19, 2011, 
http://www.kere-architecture.com/person.html.
[6] Ralph Waldo Emerson, "Essays, First Series [1841] - Self Reliance," 
American Transcendentalism Web, accessed April 25, 2011, http://www.vcu.edu/ 
engweb/transcendentalism/authors/emerson/essays/selfreliance.html.

Monday, April 18, 2011

Fun Home

"With similar perversity, the sparkling creek that coursed down from the plateau and through our town was crystal clear precisely because it was polluted. Mine runoff had left the water too acidic to support life of any kind. Wading in this fishless creek and swooning at the salmon sky, i learned firsthand that most elemental of all ironies. That, as Wallace Stevens put it in Mom's favorite poem, "Death is the Mother of Beauty." (129)


The deceit of beauty

From first glance, it seems that the entirety of Mr. Bechdel's life is about deceit - about using lifeless things to create a mask of beauty. Real life is not a sham, so it is messy and complicated and complex, with no need to hide the truth. But like the mine poisoning the creek of runoff water, Alison's father is poisoned by his secret. The burden of his shame, of knowing he was a 'bad person', drives him to strange measures to cover it up. His lack of self respect and confidence due to the fact that he cannot live without indulging his impulses and cheating on his wife and family with underage boys drives him to create a different life. A second life to mask his true one, though everyone thinks that the mask is the true life, and the sordid underlife is the secondary one. Perhaps both are equally true and/or untrue. From the surface, Bechdel has created the perfect family, the most beautiful family. His most masterful creation. But really, the art is lifeless. His family is falling apart at the seams. They are all emotionally detached from each other and from their lives, throwing themselves into their own creative outlets (or overcumpulsive obsessions) and not exactly interacting as a family. The art that Mr. Bechdel has created is dead and lifeless, because the people that compose his family are people, not cardboard cutouts. What he sees is not exactly what is there.

"The exterior setting, the pained grin, the flexible wrists, even the angle of shadow falling across our faces -- it's about as close as a trnaslation can get." (120)

"It was not the sobbing, joyous renunion of Odysseus and Telemachus. It was more like fatherless Stephen and sonless Bloom...having their equivocal late-night cocoa at 7 Eccles Street. But which of us was teh father? I had felt distinctly parental listening to his shamefaced recitation. And all too soon we were at the theater." (221)


7 Eccles Street

The above two quotes indicate the theme of inversion in this tragicomic. Alison is a translation of her father, the lesbian daughter to a gay man. She is masculine where he is (in her own words) a sissy. She is female to his man. She is stripped down and utilitarian where he is decorative and embellished. When they finally have a moment of connection, she feels like the father, when her father is the one doing the confessing. It is an entire reversal of roles, and this confusion between stereotypical family and gender roles and the actual roles each person plays is a source of complexity that colors the relationship between father and daughter. It is this confusion that each must sort out and understand in order to understand who exactly they are.

Monday, April 11, 2011

Leading By Serving

Leading By Serving

According to UNICEF, over 60 million children live in Bangladesh, a number greater than the entire population of the United Kingdom.

One of Bangladesh’s many young faces.

In Bangladesh, between 2005 and 2009 the primary school attendance rate for males was 80%. For females, it was 83%.

Secondary school attendance for males was 46% and 53% for females.

While the first statistics are pretty impressive for a third world nation, demonstrating a clear attempt to educate as many children as possible in the most densely populated country in the world, something goes wrong between primary school and secondary school. Attendance declines by nearly half because dropout rates in primary school are disturbingly high. Many societal problems are to blame for this phenomenon: child labor, early marriages for girls, and high mortality rates among them.

Despite the many obstacles of poverty, Bangladesh has made incredible strides towards development and meeting Millenium Development Goals relating to children. But it is a struggle, and children are the ones to suffer. Without education, there is absolutely no hope to life outside of abject poverty. In a nation where half the children live under the international poverty line, it is critical to provide a means to a better life.

The key is education. Schooling is the pathway to a life of more comfort and purpose, a life where survival is not a daily question.

This is where I hope to come in.

I have always been aware that I have a unique identity. I am not a Bangladeshi, nor am I exactly an American. I’m both, tied into one, with Muslim thrown into the mix. These are my roots, and have inherently influenced who I am and who I am becoming. I have never quite fit in wherever I go – in America, I am clearly different; in Bangladesh, I am obviously a standout. My great-uncle jokingly calls me memsahib, which is what natives called white mistresses during the period of British Imperialism. My clothes, my manners, my accent and demeanor, even my walk seems to be distinctly American. And yet, in America, my skin color, my name, my religion and cultural traditions set me apart.

At a café in Dhaka.

However, this has never been an issue for me. I like to stand out, I like to be unique, I like that I am different. However, this situation has made me question my life and the blessings I’ve been given. I have two cultures to call home, I have escaped a fate of poverty, and I am enrolled in the top public School of Architecture in the States. I can’t possibly have been blessed with these gifts without a reason. There must be a purpose to my life. I just have to find it. And this brings me back to my roots.

Everything for me goes back to education. My grandfathers on both sides of my family tree climbed the ladder of education to lift themselves out of rural life, and both did so in a spectacular fashion. They were not content to simply be clerks in the city or some such thing – both were first generation university students and both obtained PhD’s. Their hard work ensured that their progeny could move forward in life and succeed.

But what defines success? Wealth? Comfort? Power? Happiness? Probably all of the above. My definition of success is fulfillment, justice, and compassion. I’ve known that I have to give back to the world what the world has given me. Islam teaches us to spread good in the world, and that is my mission. I’ve determined that I need to define my life through service, so I have the Big Idea of my life. Now I need to fill in the frame with the details. Now I need to develop my vision, and my vision begins now, in college.

I am an Architecture and Plan II student. This is an apt, if somewhat difficult partnership. Because Plan II prides itself on the Renaissance education it provides, I am getting an incredibly well-rounded education in that regard. On the other hand, Architecture, in essence, requires one to be constantly learning, and to be learning everything about everything. You cannot build without understanding people, the environment, human nature, weather conditions, political situations, the laws of gravity and picturesque massing. The list truly never ends. Despite the difficulties of the lifestyle, I believe I have made the right choice. With this education, I can help improve educational opportunities for children in Bangladesh. Three quarters of Bangladesh’s population lives in rural areas, over half of whom subsist below the poverty line. Clearly, villages desperately need schools to teach these children the way to success.

I think it is imperative that the world responds to this crisis. I understand that there are similar stories to this one all over the world, but Bangladesh is one of my countries. Half of my roots bury into Bengali earth, so my personal obligation is there.

The first step for me is to complete my education. I cannot drop either major, but I especially cannot drop architecture. Both are crucial to my future as a skilled architect. An education from the States is well respected internationally, and UT and its School of Architecture are fairly renowned throughout the architecture community. I have four more years to complete after this, after which I must take my exams to obtain my license. This will enable me to practice in the field. I also plan on going to graduate school – architecture is an incredibly competitive field, and I plan to do as much as I can to stand out. So Harvard, the top architecture graduate program, is on my radar. PhD, here I come.

However, before graduate school but after I graduate, I have other plans. I plan to spend 2 years working for the Peace Corps. President JFK challenged us to think outside of our country, outside of our own life, and I plan to respond to that challenge. The Peace Corps is the perfect training ground. Bangladesh is now a closed country, but I would love to work in a south Asian country facing similar problems, such as Cambodia. There are several different fields I can work in: Education, Environment, Health, Youth and Community Development, Agriculture, HIV/AIDS, Food Security, and Business and Information and Communication Technology. I would primarily want to work in Education. First of all, because education is incredibly important to me, I would like to be involved in every step of it. I cannot imagine anything more rewarding than to directly influence and improve the life of a child. Also, this way I can experience what a teacher and student experience, and can get an innate understanding of the needs that a village school must fulfill. Poor architecture occurs when the designer fails to get inside her client’s life and mind, and doesn’t respond to the client’s needs. I want to create secondary schools that succeed. Schools in which children feel comfortable and safe and are excited to attend. Schools that teachers can utilize to the best of their abilities and where they can feel at ease. Schools that combat the steep dropout rates and are environmentally sustainable, easy to build and replicate by hand, and are beautiful. It is incredibly important – no, it is vital, to create beautiful schools. This is because people must be proud of their buildings. Villagers who are proud of their school will make an effort to ensure that their children attend. A beautiful structure will get used. It will be a source of inspiration and attraction. An ugly, utilitarian one will simply be another blemish on the land, and will inspire and excite no one.  As a teacher, I would learn precisely what would create a sense of pride and honor in a school.

I would also be able to teach skills that will be valued in a third world country, due to my education in the United States. My English classes will assist me because English is incredibly valued outside of America. Bangladesh suffers in comparison to countries such as India because the English education is not as successful in many places, and on an international level, the better English one speaks and writes, the higher level of competency one is ascribed. Also, if I decide to start my own firm, my English skills will be incredibly useful, because businesses require high levels of written skills.

meti school1
This is an example that truly works. It is called the METI Project.

Through the Peace Corps, I would also learn adaptability. Just like we have learned in this course, E603, it is crucial to character and leadership development to throw yourself into frightening and foreign situations, to take risks and make mistakes and just be completely out of your element. Our adventures with experiential learning and free falling have already begun to prepare me for this, but the Peace Corps would be the catalyst. The lifestyle I am proposing to lead is probably not going to be the highest paying one, so it’s a bit of a scary thought. I plan to work with a nonprofit group to accomplish these goals. After finishing with the Peace Corps, I will try to get a job with a firm in Northern Europe. Countries like Germany and Norway and Denmark do a lot of nonprofit work in Africa and Asia. This will be really good experience – but it’s also daunting. Getting into a firm like that is difficult. However, our fourth year of undergraduate studies can be spent interning abroad, so hopefully I can be placed in a firm with whom I can make connections and return after completing my Peace Corps stint. If that doesn’t work out, I would probably try to start my own firm. That is the most daunting goal of all: to strike out completely on my own. The thought of complete independence is terrifying, especially in an unfamiliar country.

Last week, I attended one of UTSOA’s Lecture Series. The speaker was Francis Kere, an architect from Burkina Faso who went to school in Berlin. He formed his own firm and organization for building schools, and has three main design principles on which he relies: local materials, traditional knowledge, and the power of the people. He builds schools in villages, including his own village of Gando, Burkina Faso, as well as in India. His projects span the globe and are not only limited to schools, but the fact that he has succeeded and is living what is in essence my dream gives me hope. Perhaps I could work with him in order to gain experience for my own goals.

Due to the difficulties of my college life, I sometimes lose sight of the future. It can be quite difficult, and sometimes I wonder if perhaps I’m meant for something else. No matter what, I know whatever I do must be meaningful. It must have purpose. In the words of Ralph Waldo Emerson, “I do not wish to expiate, but to live. My life is for itself and not for a spectacle. I much prefer that it should be of a lower strain, so it be genuine and equal, then that it should be glittering and unsteady. I wish it to be sound and sweet, and not to need diet and bleeding.”

The photo speaks for itself.



Total Word Count: 1866
Without Quotes: 1807

Everything will be cited properly for my final, but these are the websites used:

IMAGES:
  1. http://www.unicef.org/bangladesh/overview.html
  2. Picture taken by my mother
  3. http://www.greendiary.com/entry/meti-school-in-bangladesh-is-hand-built-and-eco-friendly/
  4. http://home.messiah.edu/~aw1313/PeaceCorps2.html

Sunday, April 10, 2011

Taniguchi

"In the first place, the West needs the spirit and capacity of sensing the presence of what is at every particular moment, (Tang-hsiachi-shih) and of giving up everything that can be had (I-chi'leh-fang-hsia). The strength of the West's cultural spirit lies in its ability to push ahead indefinitely. However, there is no secure foundation underlying this feverish pursuit of progress. Along with this pursuit of progress there is a feeling of discontentment and of emptiness. In order to fill this emptiness, the individual and the nation constantly find new ways for progress and expansion." (206)

The pursuit of progress has left us inherently empty

This concept of learning to appreciate what IS, and giving up everything to be HAD is an interesting one. It goes to the heart of the Western mindset, which is concerned primarily with progress. This is why this is such an expansionist culture. There is always a hunger, a curiosity, a desire to learn, to move forward, to explore and unfortunately, to conquer. Along with the urge to move forward, there is a thirst to OWN. The desire to rule is tied with the idea that possession is power. THe thought that the more you own to your name, the more powerful you are. This Taker attitude is completely opposed to Leaver culture, which is content to allow coexistence. Rather than conquering, the Leaver philosophy teaches that every sentient being is an equal contribution and member of the planet. Power comes from wisdom and knowledge, from earning respect based on one's actions and intellect. Not from wealth of land/money/slaves/accessories/homes/cars or any other possessions. The truth is, this type of expansion is empty. Possessions have no spiritual connections. They cannot touch your heart, they cannot fulfill any need for inner peace, because all it is is STUFF. Stuff that means nothing. Unfortunately, we are killing off the one thing that CAN fill our emptiness: the planet. We are getting rid of nature, we are killing people. We are waging wars, we are consuming all of our resources. We are speeding up the process of death. This expansionist attitude clearly is not succeeding.

"There was no contract, no design, and no blueprints of any kind because - as Taniguchi explains - gardens are not created by such methods. Instead, the plans for the Oriental Gardens existed only in Taniguchi's mind, in his soul and in his heart." (213)
These plans were in Taniguchi's soul

As an architecture student, and INFJ person, this is intriguing to me. What may surprise many people not familiar with architecture is that a lot of it is internal. The whole idea of architecture is to solve a problem in the best way possible, in the most graceful way possible. We are taught to enhance experiences with our creations. THerefore, we must be very very in tune with human nature and emotion. We have to consider how a person would feel in a certain space, in a certain climate, in a certain environment, surrounded by a certain color. Then we must develop these internal feelings and express them externally through models, drawings, and our creations themselves - but these will ultimately affect not only the external, physical shell of the person experiencing the landscape/building, but the internal, emotional core. Therefore, I am surprised that Taniguchi managed to complete this project without even creating any sort of blueprint or plan. Usually, drawings and sketches and models and all of that is thought to improve the design process and facilitate growth in the project, by bringing it outside of the designer's head and into the hands of outside critics. However, as an INFJ, I totally understand, because personally, I'm not much of a planner. Yes, to some degree, but I'm more of a flow-er. I have an idea in my head, and I just let it flow out of me - when I write, draw, paint, whatever. I haven't quite worked out my design process yet, but the other creative things I do, they just happen. Apparently I even flow or float when I walk, and I've always been a laid back, "go with the flow" type of person. I completely understand what it is to have the creativity be inside your soul.

"By observing the genuine peaceful nature of the garden, I believe that we should be able to knock on the door of our conscience, which once was obliged to be the slave of the animal nature in man rather than of the humanity which resides on the other side of his heart." (215)

The way I see it, there are two fundamental approaches to architecture. One is to create bold, beautiful, otherworldy, futuristic structures that completely stand out from the environment. Something that works in tandem with the environment, but doesn't make any effort to blend in. Statement making architecture, if you will. The other approach is to take a look at what you are given, prioritize the environment, and build a structure that nestles right into the background. Its not necessarily that its boring, but that it coexists with its surroundings. Think Romans versus Japanese. The Romans didn't care a whit for the environment. This was where the Colosseum should be built, so that was where it'd be built. Who cares if there was a lake there? The Japanese, on the other hand, built into beautiful landscapes without attempting to conquer it. I used to be a fan of the former style, but am now a devoted adherent of the latter. It embodies the idea of being at peace with the world. I think this is what the peaceful nature of the garden speaks to. The peaceful nature of man. Not the belligerent one.

"...Now that we are in the world of the suicide bomber that logic is threatened and "radioactivity" once again becomes a terrifying word." (216)

Unfortuantely, the belligerent nature of man doesn't seem interested in disappearing. Probably as long as we are interested in expansion, in possession, in conquering and degrading and owning, humans will face these fears and problems.

"Isamu soon grew to love his Mother Tree, and to depend on her for companionship and encouragement. Day after day she told him to keep digging, especially on days when he was ready to give up!" (223)

The nurturing nature of the tree

Fortunately, the nurturing, motherly nature of the planet will always be a force of hope and inspiration. A source of spirituality and peace.